Sabtu, 1 September 2018 {0} | Leave a comment ? i wanna talk about depression and suicidal. but first, i ask of you guys to keep an open mind and refrain yourselves from assumptions . the fact is depression is not just about being sad at all times depression is when you cant control your brain from having negative thoughts anxiety, guilt, numb, remorse, and worst of them all : thoughts of suicide . one thing that a person who suffers from depression fears most rather than being sad and suicidal is being happy/content/satisfied, and suicidal . you see, a depressed person struggles from many bad thoughts and they survive them with good affirmations they planted in their heads but then, one day, they experience a peaceful day and after the happiness lingers they suddenly thought "this is the perfect time to die" . then another battle comes im happy, why would i want to die? they asked the whys in their heads why still want to die? . they are afraid because if they cant control their mind what if later they cant control their actions and lose to the battle that theyve fought for long . i wanna say to those who have lost their loved ones to suicide maybe they smiled and laughed alot before they die maybe you blamed yourself for not knowing if they faked it i wanna tell you this: their smile and happiness when they were with you are GENUINE they didnt fake it. its just their brain being unable to process fthose happiness its why they call it mental illness if you have blamed yourself, pls stop and remember that those happy days were genuine and as much as they want to keep those happy memories they want you to keep them too 😊 . how do i know this? its a secret between me and him . . . actually, when you thought you were happy and wanted to die it wasnt really you wanting to die you just wished you could die in peace who wouldnt want to? everyone wants to die in peace you, wishing to die in peace, is a valid wish so pls, dont overthink and just accept that this is your brain making comments not really means that you wanna die now just a comment that if you wanna die, you wanna die on a peaceful day pls understand this and keep safe . this is a public speech for awareness and this is a reminder for you. i love you 💝💖💕 |
