Khamis, 15 Januari 2015 {0} | Leave a comment ? Merenung jam. Aku mengeluh. Haritu kate nk berubah. Ni kenape tido lewat lagi? Nanti bangun je hari dh terang. Subuh ntah ke mana. Tahajjud takyah sebut la kan? Astaghfirullah I thought i could be a different person now. But thanks to so much drama. And so much things i wanted to do. I just couldnt be rational. Couldnt bring myself to sleep. Couldnt bring myself to be alert of the time and be punctual.. And all this are pretty much because.. hmm, i'd really blame myself for lack of praying.. Not just about the solah itself but the dua. Kerana sesungguhnya doa itu senjata mukmin. Dua is the most powerful weapon for moslem. Tanpa ragu. //ish bile dh start ckp melayu hilang segala vocab. Terus jadi rojak. You know, i was always lazy and rule-breaking during my puberty. Until i got into my school (its a boarding school). And adapted myself to the routine. We prayed together in jamaah. So its kind of you cant runaway from it. And even im a rulebreaker i wouldnt make myself a troublemaker. There would be so much questions that i wouldnt wnt to answer to my teachers and parents. And being a troublemaker makes you the lime light of the school. I hate to the eyed anytime. The thing is. When i got home and forget about all the praying. The solah the dua. I got real bad. Im not qualified to be called human. I became a zombie. Literally. And i really hate it now. Since its a new year. I tried to be better than those years. But you know how much the laziness would affect your life. And doing deed is easy. But to do it consistently... Is a challenge. Seriously.. So now. Aku nak tido. Memandangkan aku dh pilih benda yg tepat untuk buat aku penat dan rase nak tido. So.. bye. Assalamualaikum! |
