aku jumpa channel cdrama yang menarik dekat ytube. masa tu aku check ruyi royal palace. pastu terjumpa ada satu cerita ttg puteri padang rumput. tajuk dia goodbye my princess, dekat kukan drama channel.

citer dia pasal politic antara negara2 kecil sebelum wujud dinasti china. puteri tu di suruh kahwin dengan central sbb tu negara paling besar dekat kawasan dorang. tapi puteri ni nak freedom sbb dah biasa duduk bebas dekat padang rumput yang luas. takkan nak terkurung dekat bandar capital yang dikira paling modern lah masa tu. kut. 

eh tapi mula2 tu dia disuruh kahwin dengan negara jiran, tapi dia xnak sbb orang tu gasar dan lagi busuk dari dia. falsafah moralnya tak sama. puteri tu tak sedar yg ada wakil dari central yg masuk meminang dia juga, offer political marriag ejuga lah.

puteri ni nak elope dengan tok guru kungfu dia. tok guru dia muda je. mungkin mcm 10 tahun beza, like higschoolers dengan early adult punya gap. 

rupa2nya tokguru dia ni ada ulterior motive tentang family clan dia. blablabla. dan dia ada history lampau dengan putera dari central tu. 

putera tu tipu puteri ni dan sembunyikan identiti sbgi putera. dorang bercinta mmg nicelah. yg pasal elope tu, tok guru dia enggan juga sbb x bagus bagi status puteri tu. tapi sbenarnya tok guru dia sayang juga puteri ni. tapi dorang kira terima je yg dorang ni xde jodoh tok guru tu hadap je dorang ni bercinta depan mata dia. 

tapi yg aku tak faham. putera ni gila kuasa ke apa ntah. dia komplot dengan abang dia yg masa tu ketua panglima. dia nak tawan negara padang pasir, yg mana itu negara milik atuk puteri tu. puteri tu lari juga dari istana dan nak pergi mengadu dekat atuk dia. putera ni janji dgn abang dia nak serang padang pasir tu lepas dua minggu. sambil tu dia nak kahwin dan bawa lari puteri tu. 

tapi abang dia si panglima ni ambik kesempatan dan serang pada hari perkahwinan. kemudian walaupun dah kahwin, putera ni belot pada negara atuk puteri dan akhirnya bunuh atuk puteri dengan tangan putera tu sendiri. wtf moment. pastu puteri tu marah dan benci lah pada putera tu. 

pastu dorang berlari berkejaran sbb puteri tu dah tak nak tengok muka putera tu tapi putera tu nak jugak puteri tu. pastu puteri tu lari gi cari air terjun yg dikatakan boleh buat lupa memori percintaan yg perit. gitu la lebih kurang. and then diorang jatuh dalam sungai tu sama-sama dan sama-sama lupa tentang cinta diorang.

pastu bila puteri tu bangun dia akan dijodohkan dengan putera panglima tu si abang watak utama. pastu antara puteri dan putera berulang kembali dengan ending yg sama perit. memang putera tu seorang yg tak guna dan pentingkan diri. dia macam masih muda dan tak matang. sebagai budak bawak 20an kut, dia buta dengan niat dia nak memiliki puteri tu, sampaikan dia dah tak tahu tentang budi bahasa antara family besar. sebagai contoh dengan abang si puteri. 

at the end of the story, aku rasa puteri tu tak patut kembali jatuh cinta dengan putera tu. walaupun si putera panglima tu pun otak dia tak betul, tapi demi politik puteri tu patut berhenti struggle dan lebih kepada terima keadaan yg dia dah jadi isteri putera negara lain. kalau dia lebih ramah dan pandai manipulate hati putera, mungkin negara2 kecil keluarga dia boleh survive dengan lebih baik. 

membuatkan aku sedar kenapa wanita2 istana dalam cerita cina ni nampak psycho. sbb diorang tiba2 terpaksa tinggalkan dan lupakan keluarga asal diorang. menyedihkan. 

lagi satu cerita aku binge tentang Queen of Dugu. jujurnya aku tengok sbb gambar promo queen dan kng dia nampak hensem/cantik sangat. lol. dia cerita ttg negara yg 

 First tahu citer ni sbb ost eden by aqua timez

Jumpa ada kat mangapark

Read 50+ chaps in less than a week

Damn

Aladin is a nice level headed superhero

Dynamic btwn ali baba & sinbad

I thought the chinese char shouldve won

But their tolerance & compromise, leading a new change

Bila morgiana hilang akal sbb ulah sinbad, pergh devastating

But definitely nice to see her on his side again

If only qassim could live till the end

Next: kemono jihen

 jika benar cinta itu buta dan membutakan

biarlah aku tak mahu

biarlah pergi semua rasa

biarlah kau pergi, 

carilah yang cerah 

kerana ia dapat menyuluhi jalan

bukan seperti aku yg sejuk membeku

mungkin kau merasa gelap dan sejuk itu selesa

tapi lebih baik hidup ini dengan cahaya dan kehangatan.

- post watching chinese ER drama on CDrama TV yt channel

- masalah hormon bukan hanya period to thyroid

 Hei tadi aku mimpi

I guess aku stress sbb susah tido musim hujan x menentu

And guess who? Mr k again.

Lol

Dah macam... Otak aku ni xde cerita lain. Logik otak aku: watak utama : dia.

Tapi ennn

Maybe dia tu cuma penyedap cerita yg mana otak aku pakai letak je details ape ntah 

Supaya ada nampak logik gambaran mimpi tu

Yelah drpd tetiba mimpi haqiem rusli ke enn . Itu lagi pelik rasanya.

Orang kata mimpi tu boleh jadi datang drpd subsconcious mind kita.

Sepanjang mimpi tu

Aku berdepan dengan rumah yg perlu direnovate perlu dibaiki perlu disusun atur suma isi rumah tu

Tetiba bila nak abis mimpi dapat call dari dia rupa2nya aku berkemas sbb dia nak datang rumah.

Ehhh malu la aku. Dia call tu sekali dgn orang lain suruh face time. Borak dgn sume orang tu.

Serabut aku nak pakai tudung yg mcm mana and nak pakai niqab ke tak? Dah la background bilik bersepah.

Jadi sebenarnya aku rasa... Dia bukan main-point mimpi aku

Tapi sebenarnya part nak kemas2 rumah tu. Banyak lagi yg kena dibuat di rumah along ni.

Lagi satu, tentang niqab/purdah. Aku rasa orang sume mesti dah lupa pasal aku ni pakai purdah ye dak. 

Jadi sebenarnya selain benda besar yg terjadi dalam mimpi kita

Mungkin kita juga perlu beri perhatian kepada latar belakang dan perkara2 kecil lain yg terjadi dalam mimpi kita itu....

i finished bleach anime after having 3 days fever caused by covid.

i skipped a few fillers arc, because i want to finish it early. im saving it for after.

i remember during 2014, i was struggling with spm, i watched a few clips of bleach. mostly because i wanted to see the fight with ulquoirra. (but i didnt, instead i saw ichigos fight with tensa zangetsu. super sad.)

after watching the fight with ulquoira, i still dont understand where did ulquoirra stand as an arrancar. did he really believed in aizen? was he as heartless as he seemed? his last words with orihime, it showed something, but because i dont like orihime and i was watching at 1.5x, i just cant understand.

aizen had a big God syndrome like, which, as a Muslim: its laughable to me. God is not all politics.

Ok, so i watched the fullbringer arc with kuugo and his team.

before i watched that myself, i saw a clip where kuugo steals ichigo's fullbring. in the comment someone said thats painful. and only orihime really understands him.

im like, seriously, i dont care about orihime. but, when i saw that people (the other characters) talk about fullbring and shinigami as two different thing, and i saw how zangetsu nor his hollow power came forward, i just knew that this is not the end.

but it did surprise me that all the captains share their power with ichigo. like... how? why? thats too much power aint that? i dont understand how ichigo cant handle everyone elses reiatsu but maybe i just need to know how much they gave tho.

when kuugo died, he asked if ichigo and him switch place, as in ichigo is the first shinigami substitute, and kuugos the shinigami substitute after him, 

would ichigo became like him and hed need to kill ichigo?

to me, it wont happen. to me, the answer to that question is: if ichigo is the first shinigami substitute, hed be the only one. (unless he died, but then, hed be a real shinigami after spending a few years in Soul Society)

when the series end with ichigo saying goodbye, i dont feel satisfied. i bet when it ended fans where feeling the same as me.

but good news, there are still more things to read in the manga and theres novels. i didnt know mangas can be adapted to novels but now i know. lol

the hundred year's war excites me. but i remembered young me peeking over my abang reading the quincy arc. where ishida has a fiance. i dont think i can read something like that.

more good news, theyre working on making anime about the last arcs. imma watch them after a few months it ended. because i need time to prepare my heart to block the religious sentiment, and also thats just how i can digest the anime.

i peeked some anime blogs, yt comments and reddit on bleach topics. but i just dont agree with any of those. 

you know how fans ship the ichigo-rukia relationship. you know, im not mad that rukia ended up with renji because it makes sense. but ichigo-orihime is something i just.. i didnt... well i dont like orihime. i thought ichigo would be with someone else like tatsuki, or yoruichi (but its understandable because ichigo-yoruichi is like naruto-tsunade. mentor figure, too old like grandma. also theres urahara.) i learnt on wikifandom (or something) that ichigo is a part of the shiba clan so theres that girl too. idk who but i didnt approve ichigo-orihime marriage, but oh well its not like im the author.

alot of things people are talking about bleach but imma disagree with them all and close the tabs.

anyways, 

just as a memory keeping:

nowadays im also watching : 

jujutsu kaisen (waiting on 2nd season)

attack on titan (waiting on final anime part, finished the final manga chapter)

tokyo man revenger (i know people recognise it as tokyo revenger, but to me its misleading. its about the gang not the city ((as i first thought)) this anime frustrates me because the two heros are just stupid and weak. im still waiting on when theyre k***ing kisaki teita. but maybe ill talk more another time.

iqiyi is a good place for me to binge watch things. 

idk y im opening this blog to public now. i think i shouldnt but maybe because i want someone to comment and watch anime with me. im lonely.

 Im rewatching bleach

I realised i didnt watch it properly, it was always watching by my sis/bro side. Also i was too young to understand. I think i was 9 or 10 when i first watch it. 

I cried during the episode where ichigo and ishida had a bet. And everyone else is fighting.. but they re just 15.. and they gained so much heartaches, power & responsibility. Wth.

Seriously, what 15 years old work so much they bleed, recover and bleed again in 1 month?

oh i guess kpop trainees? T.T 

Im about to reach 25 and im still a lazybummer. 

How?