Rabu, 27 Mac 2019 {0} | Leave a comment ? semalam aku nak masak. tapi tak jumpa pisau kayu yang aku selalu guna tu so aku jumpa pisau handle hitam. nampak besar but less intimidating daripada pisau ceramik yang biru tu selamba je karok sambil masak casserole. [i needed that karaoke session tho] potong ape je; sosej, bawang merah bawang putih, sawi, itu pun sawi cenenot je tinggal tapi entah kenapa aku reckless pastu aku letak pisau kat hujung pastu aku terlanggar and jatuh luckily tak kena kaki my first thought was "oh shit benda yg aku takutkan selama ni dah jadi" akhirnya. takut pisau jatuh but in the end, seperti selalu nothing bad happened. tak kena kaki, tak luka, tak berdarah. everything just fine. tapi otak aku melilau. what if, kena gak tadi?? shit it was scary. tangkap gamba sebagai peringatan jangan takut lagi, nothing bad will happen, this world is safe enough, tapi what if that thought made me cry. . . . pas abis makan aku cuba untuk siapkan keje assigment yg memang dah due. tapi otak aku terawang awang. ("..lucky") and progressively, tangan aku sakit lagi and plus, kaki kiri aku pun jadi kebas [xtau lah if disebabkan kita banyak berdiri lama] and aku sedar, it wasnt and never was intended as slitting ianya benda yg en kaunselor bagitahu kat aku psychosomatic symptom when your mind get stressed, your body also get tense. muscle tension. is what i suffer from for years im searching for the answer turns out the answer is simple muscle soreness. thats it. . . . for a while, walaupun aku yang tangkap gamba pisau tu, tapi gamba tu jadi intimidating kaunselor kata takpe. at least awak tak over panicked awak jadi lebih berhati2 awak okey je kan.. |
