Khamis, 13 Julai 2017 {0} | Leave a comment ? Disclaimer: well, this will be my love problems blog huh? Topic: I regret that time i told him to think abt whatever thats best for him and to prioritize himself first . and I'll do the same Yea, i told him that. And now, im in deep shit cause i really miss him And i dont know what to do abt it I wish i could leave him alone. And never disturb him with his life. Without feeling disturbed with silly questions like, "does he really love me?" "Why cant he text me first?" "Is it gonna be one-sided till the end?" "What more should I put into this effort?" Srsly, i have thousands of insecurities abt this relationship. And a piece of word from him would make me feel relaxed a bit. But it will backfire again because im gonna feel insecure abt that relaxed bit, afterwards. *sigh* Other topic: HE BROKE HIS PROMISE! He said he would come. He said he wanted to meet. He said we MUST meet. That word was used by HIM. I took it very srsly and yet he couldn't come. And he didnt tell me he couldn't until i ask him, and ive asked repeatedly i feel ashamed of myself i feel like i was pushing it but then srsly he was the one who said we should meet, he said we MUST but then where is he?! He didnt even follow up with me on anything. Too busy with his jobs i think. Huh 😠I sure hope I could forget this cause i should just forgive and forget abt this. I really hope i wont ever ungkit abt this lil thing. Misc: i miss him so much I try to stalk him on ig but seems like he forgot to unblock me after im finished with my final exams. I stalked his fb but apparently since were not friends so i only get to see whatever thats set to public And i found his post abt thinking abt someone special. As i think abt it now, just why is he putting it on public.?! I guess he knows im such a stalker. So, what does that means though ? Like, it put my heart at rest for a whole day but then i feel like What if its not pointed to me? Haha, Quit lying to yourself and making yourself confuse. Damn you insecurities. I wish i could bring up a topic to chat with him But nothing is relevant Amugutu opso Its been a fortnight and i thought i should be tough and try to put up until a year. Am i going mad? Madlove blownnnnnn** |
