Rabu, 18 April 2018 {0} | Leave a comment ? Last week i got a lot in my hands and also i got my period really late. A week late. The pms was hitting very strong I wanted to do nothing. I procrastinated, skipped my prayers, ignore studies, ignore my no M mission. Got really moody and always be reminded of him, that petty boy. So it was stressful. Not just externally but internally. I myself made me miserable. But what did i do? I feel. I feel all of them The doubt The laziness The missing unimportant people The i need to do something feeling The Trashings Ignoring things. Slowly but surely i overcome it all. Including the urge to slit. Yup. Slitting my wrists, is the ugliest of my imagination. I never done it But it was always on the back of my mind It frustrates me. Scares me But i just feel and answer my feeling. I never wanted to commit suicide no matter how intense the feeling is i never wanted to die like that. So i answer it by drawing henna on my arms. Those thrashing? I trash but with good intentions and better wordings. The laziness? I procrastinate but i still finish the job Missing someone? I project it to my best friends Ignoring things? I did but not for long Scared? I talked to people abt it Sad? I cried. Feeling lost? I google. Many things can be done to overcome these illnesses. And you will grow stronger. Its a training.. It may get more intense. And you will grow even stronger. Smile. Laugh. And love xxx |
